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<p>The mother of <a href="https://dev.theshaderoom.com/stephen-twitch-boss-passes-away-at-the-age-of-40-from-reported-suicide/" target="_blank" rel="noopener">Stephen &#8216;tWitch&#8217; Boss</a>, Connie Boss Alexander, is speaking out for the first time since his passing. As <a href="https://dev.theshaderoom.com/stephen-twitch-boss-passes-away-at-the-age-of-40-from-reported-suicide/" target="_blank" rel="noopener">The Shade Room</a> previously reported, the DJ passed by suicide at the age of 40 in December.</p>
<h5 style="text-align: center;">RELATED: <a href="https://dev.theshaderoom.com/stephen-twitch-boss-wife-reflects-his-life-1st-video-message/" target="_blank" rel="noopener">WATCH: Stephen ‘tWitch’ Boss’ Wife Reflects On His Life In 1st Video Message Since His Passing</a></h5>
<h3 style="text-align: center;">Connie Boss Alexander Reflects On Her Son&#8217;s Passing &; Her Grief Since</h3>
<p>Alexander sat down for an exclusive interview with <a href="https://people.com/stephen-twitch-boss-mom-connie-opens-up-first-time-since-his-death-exclusive-7554334" target="_blank" rel="noopener">PEOPLE</a> and reflected on her son&#8217;s passing.</p>
<blockquote><p>&#8220;Sometimes it feels like it was just yesterday, and then other times it feels like it’s been so long since I’ve seen him.&#8221;</p></blockquote>
<p>Additionally, the 59-year-old explained that she refrains from thinking of how her son passed away.</p>
<blockquote><p>&#8220;When I think about him, I try not to dwell on how he left this earth&#8230;&#8221;</p></blockquote>
<p>She continued by explaining that she believes &#8220;this not totally the end,&#8221; and that is where her &#8220;peace comes from.&#8221;</p>
<h3 style="text-align: center;">The 59-Year-Old Speaks On &#8220;Accepting&#8221; Her Son&#8217;s Passing</h3>
<p>Despite this, the mother candidly admitted that she find herself in many moments of &#8220;introspection&#8221; regarding the days leading up to her son&#8217;s passing.</p>
<blockquote><p>&#8220;You find yourself in a lot of introspection, a lot of looking back. Did I miss something? Did he mean something when he said this?&#8230;&#8221;</p></blockquote>
<p>She went on to call her son&#8217;s passing &#8220;very, very shocking.&#8221; Then added that she&#8217;s unsure when she&#8217;ll be able to &#8220;accept it.&#8221;</p>
<blockquote><p>&#8220;I don’t know when or if I’ll ever accept it. At this point, I’m in realization, I guess. When I wake up in the morning, it does hit me that, &#8216;Oh my God, he really is not physically here.&#8217; But then in my head I can hear him say, &#8216;Hey, Mom. I’m okay.'&#8221;</p></blockquote>
<p>All in all, Alexander summarized her grief by explaining, &#8220;Some days are better than others.&#8221;</p>
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<h3 style="text-align: center;">Stephen &#8216;tWitch&#8217; Boss&#8217; Mother Recently Wished Her Son A Happy Father&#8217;s Day In Heaven</h3>
<p>Alexander recently shared a first Father&#8217;s Day message to her son in heaven via Instagram. In her message, the mother reflected on how difficult the day would be for his children.</p>
<blockquote><p>&#8220;Dwelling on sweet memories, knowing how different and hard today is for your babies&#8230; I pray they felt your presence today and God wrapped them in peace. Happy Heavenly Father&#8217;s Day son&#8230;as a family we will always strive to ensure Wes, Maddox and Zaia know they are your greatest joy, blessings and legacy. So many precious moments with your loves.&#8221;</p></blockquote>
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<p>According to <a href="https://pagesix.com/2022/12/21/stephen-twitch-boss-mom-posts-message-after-his-death/" target="_blank" rel="noopener">Page Six</a>, Alexander briefly spoke out following her son&#8217;s passing in December. On one occasion, she took to her Instagram Story to share her wish of FaceTiming heaven.</p>
<blockquote><p>&#8220;Oh if only I could FT to heaven…&#8221;</p></blockquote>
<p>Before this, she thanked the public for their condolences.</p>
<blockquote><p>&#8220;Family and friends, thank you for all the love, prayers and encouragement.</p>
<p>Please know I see all the messages, texts, posts and the phone calls. I can’t use words right now. Please know I will reach out when I can. Stephen Laurel, your mother loves you to eternity and beyond <img class="emoji" role="img" draggable="false" src="https://s.w.org/images/core/emoji/14.0.0/svg/1f499.svg" alt="ð" /> <img class="emoji" role="img" draggable="false" src="https://s.w.org/images/core/emoji/14.0.0/svg/1f494.svg" alt="ð" />.&#8221;</p></blockquote>
<p>As <a href="https://dev.theshaderoom.com/stephen-twitch-boss-passes-away-at-the-age-of-40-from-reported-suicide/" target="_blank" rel="noopener">The Shade Room</a> previously reported, Boss was married to Allison Holker, and the two shared two children named Maddox, 6, and Zaia, 3. Furthermore, Boss also adopted Holker’s 14-year-old daughter, Elsie, from a prior relationship.</p>
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<p>Roomies, please join us in sending continued condolences and prayers to Stephen &#8216;tWitch&#8217; Boss&#8217; family!</p>
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